Better Now

I am happy to say that home is a lot happier now and back to the way it should be. Maybe it was the Christmas stress that upset me or missing my dad.

I phone my mum every day without fail but the other day was surprising as she was sounding very low and teary. She has been building up her feelings since dad died and it caught up with her. The next day she was back to her usual happy self again. I am glad I call her every day as some days she would not hear from or see anyone. It is also a good way of checking she is ok and not collapsed or any thing like that.

Well the end of the year approaches us tomorrow, it always feels sad even though its been a bad year and the new year is hopeful but scary as we go into the unknown once again.

My son and his wife are expecting a baby and god willing, she will not lose this one as she has the last couple of times. About July time being due.

Mum said to me to never go without saying things you want to say to your loved ones and never say anything you may regret as one day it will be too late. Never a truer word spoken.

update

Gosh, its been a while

My dad died this year and it is still awful to bear even though it was back in may. I cant believe he is not on this earth but I often feel his spirit. I intend to say more in a further blog at another time.

Mum had an op for cancer later in the year and came through it ok at the good old age of 82. Thank goodness as we were all expecting the worse. It has not been a favourable year for our family

Yesterday, I wanted to end my 4th marriage after a nasty row over nothing (as usual) I love him but I can hate him too. I wonder why I am with him. What does he do for me? Does he even care? I want to say so much but it will just spark another row. We have been married for 6 years...... He gets up late and is on pc most of the day.... although in the same room as me but there is hardly a word.  

The last few weeks I have prepped for Christmas,  shopped, cooked, cleaned, done mountains of dishes. Oh yes he did change the cat litter and empty some bins. I wouldn't mind doing the work if I got some loving back, a hug sometimes 

I came here to let my feelings out and hopefully it will help. I suffer from acute anxiety and need an outlet like this.

Family Stuff

I heard today that my grandson Jason has passed his driving test first time and in a couple of weeks he will be taking his advanced. That is hard to do these days as they are far more strict than they used to be.

My youngest is getting married on April 14th this year, his fiance proposed on 29th Feb and they decided not to put it off lol  They have 6 children between them but only look after one full time. She had a miscarriage not long ago and another one a couple of days ago so hopefully they have learnt its not meant to be at this moment and to take more care. The following day they are going to christen the little one and have their marriage blessed in church so gonna be a busy weekend.

I was looking at the family tree stuff and got waylaid as you do and ended up somewhere else but I did find out some useful and interesting stuff about when my grandad carved the replica speakers chairs for Canada and Australia and now have printed a lovely pic in colour. When I first went to get information on this, I had no computer and wrote away to the different people in the countries and got back some B&W info and they were very helpful, it is lovely to see grandads name on the Internet as sculptor.

I am still learning to find my way around this blog lol

Starting out

This is my first entry of my blog. I was watching the programme 'Doctors' on TV and one of the docs was getting hooked on blogging and it made me wonder how you could get hooked on it. So I just had to go and try it out, so here we are.

I don't know who,  if anyone will read this but at least I will have my own journal
It was a sad day yesterday when my son in law's grandad dies after fighting cancer, they were told it wouldn't be long now but it was still a shock when it happened, we feel sorry for the family now having to deal with the real grief of it all. My daughter is dealing with her husbands grief and giving him a lot of support when needed, also to his nan. Grandad was a biggish man with a white beard and resembled father christmas, he loved the kids and was always working and willing to help people.

I don't really know what else to say today but I am glad my blog is now alive