I am happy to say that home is a lot happier now and back to the way it should be. Maybe it was the Christmas stress that upset me or missing my dad.
I phone my mum every day without fail but the other day was surprising as she was sounding very low and teary. She has been building up her feelings since dad died and it caught up with her. The next day she was back to her usual happy self again. I am glad I call her every day as some days she would not hear from or see anyone. It is also a good way of checking she is ok and not collapsed or any thing like that.
Well the end of the year approaches us tomorrow, it always feels sad even though its been a bad year and the new year is hopeful but scary as we go into the unknown once again.
My son and his wife are expecting a baby and god willing, she will not lose this one as she has the last couple of times. About July time being due.
Mum said to me to never go without saying things you want to say to your loved ones and never say anything you may regret as one day it will be too late. Never a truer word spoken.
Sunday, 30 December 2012
Thursday, 27 December 2012
update
Gosh, its been a while
My dad died this year and it is still awful to bear even though it was back in may. I cant believe he is not on this earth but I often feel his spirit. I intend to say more in a further blog at another time.
Mum had an op for cancer later in the year and came through it ok at the good old age of 82. Thank goodness as we were all expecting the worse. It has not been a favourable year for our family
Yesterday, I wanted to end my 4th marriage after a nasty row over nothing (as usual) I love him but I can hate him too. I wonder why I am with him. What does he do for me? Does he even care? I want to say so much but it will just spark another row. We have been married for 6 years...... He gets up late and is on pc most of the day.... although in the same room as me but there is hardly a word.
The last few weeks I have prepped for Christmas, shopped, cooked, cleaned, done mountains of dishes. Oh yes he did change the cat litter and empty some bins. I wouldn't mind doing the work if I got some loving back, a hug sometimes
I came here to let my feelings out and hopefully it will help. I suffer from acute anxiety and need an outlet like this.
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My dad died this year and it is still awful to bear even though it was back in may. I cant believe he is not on this earth but I often feel his spirit. I intend to say more in a further blog at another time.
Mum had an op for cancer later in the year and came through it ok at the good old age of 82. Thank goodness as we were all expecting the worse. It has not been a favourable year for our family
Yesterday, I wanted to end my 4th marriage after a nasty row over nothing (as usual) I love him but I can hate him too. I wonder why I am with him. What does he do for me? Does he even care? I want to say so much but it will just spark another row. We have been married for 6 years...... He gets up late and is on pc most of the day.... although in the same room as me but there is hardly a word.
The last few weeks I have prepped for Christmas, shopped, cooked, cleaned, done mountains of dishes. Oh yes he did change the cat litter and empty some bins. I wouldn't mind doing the work if I got some loving back, a hug sometimes
I came here to let my feelings out and hopefully it will help. I suffer from acute anxiety and need an outlet like this.
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